The One Who Cared

The one that I cared the most
The one that I loved the most
I try helping them but your help was unwanted here

I try asking questions but I just end up guessing the answer instead of asking straight out
But no, it's none of your business even if you care and love me
Sure it is fine, I will let you be

And thinking letting you just talk will help you feel better but not this time
Feeling useless and empty
But why I like this?

Do I care too much?
Do I always want the best for you?
Wasn't I was there when you needed the most?

More and more becoming distance
You and I, we are not the same
Different goals, different reasons

I cared about you but you just threw it away
Turn your back to me
Nothing left to do but to give you space

But it felt like it was a mistake
It went from days to weeks to months without talking
But then something change everything

A mysterious call came through, I couldn't recognise the number but I picked up
It was your mom and told me something bad happened to you
And I hung up and rushed there

Running
Time seem so slow
But I must keep going

When I got there
Your mom gave me a note
It was in your handwriting

So I read and it said

"I know we haven't talk in a long time. Everyday I missed you but as the days turned toweeks then turned to months, I became suddenly ill. The doctors said I will only have 3 months to live. I didn't wanted to tell you on the phone or person because I think itwould have hurt you too much. So on my death bed I wrote you this note so the pain maybe less. This is the last thing I would write to you and let it be this: I love the moments that we cherish, You change me from the day we started dating, I never wanted to let you go but after that fight we had, a few days without hearing your voice, seeing your smile, it made me very depressed and I wanted you to call me or just see me again. But it seem you didn't care about me, so I cried everyday night and waited everyday for a call or something just to make me feel better. You always made me feel better even when I didn't expected you did. Feeling lonely, not being care just wanted to see you..."

The note ended
Feeling guilty, I burst into tears
Felt like I could have done more

Then I asked your mom if you are still alive
And she said "today is her last day she is at the hospital"
So we quickly left soon after

Knowing I don't have much time
I must get there
If I don't I don't know what I will do

When we arrived at the hospital, I was in a panic
Wondering if it was too late or not?
I wasn't, the doctors let me to see you

When I got into your room, you were sleeping
I went up to you and hug you
As you woke up you smile and I smile too

As I kiss you on your forehead, you said your final words
"I love you and don't forget about me"
A moment of silence, I broke into tears

Your mom hugged me, to comfort me
I lost someone who care the most
I got there at the last minute, and losing forever is not what I wanted
This was too much for me, at least I made you happy for one last time
I love you too