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TryI try and try again
But nothing seems to work
She just keeps ignoring me
She keeps thinking it is dead
I keep on trying to tell her it's not
But why won't you listen
Listening is key
I have been listening to you this whole time
But not once I turned away and said
"I wish it could have been different"
No, that's not how I thought
How it felt
Being through so much with you that I can't let go just like that
No, I am not saying I am living in the past
I am saying I want you to still be there
I want you not to give in to your own doubt
Believe me, please
My life is better with you not without
Hanging on a thread and I grab it with all my might for that it would be sew on and not drift away
No sarcastic tone, no laughing matter
All in seriousness, serious about you
Serious that this still can work out
All relationships go though turmoil, crap, mess ups and all
But it takes a real one get through it
It wouldn't be an easy road but a doable road
I know you hate the feeling of making this deci
Find AnewI look at myself everyday
To what has come to me
You at me, but truth won't lie
The scars that remain
It's time to move on
But it all starts in the heart
Can't understand the person I am
There is someone that can see who I am
Where I came from, where I am heading
Bus rides heading to university and going home
I want you to come and sit next to me
To see life as how I see
Alone I am not, with you my life will change again
When I first saw you, there in Waterloo
I didn’t have the chance to talk to you because you were with your friends and I was with mine
It was two years ago and I thought I would never see you again
Who knew that I would find you again
Being in the same city as me, for school
I feel I have something to look forward every time I am out there
You only a fifteen minute ride away
I can't say in love with you because I haven't really got to know you but I do like you
I hope I don't get in so deep and sink away
Lose myself in the process
I want to make you mine but I am
The One Who CaredThe one that I cared the most
The one that I loved the most
I try helping them but your help was unwanted here
I try asking questions but I just end up guessing the answer instead of asking straight out
But no, it's none of your business even if you care and love me
Sure it is fine, I will let you be
And thinking letting you just talk will help you feel better but not this time
Feeling useless and empty
But why I like this?
Do I care too much?
Do I always want the best for you?
Wasn't I was there when you needed the most?
More and more becoming distance
You and I, we are not the same
Different goals, different reasons
I cared about you but you just threw it away
Turn your back to me
Nothing left to do but to give you space
But it felt like it was a mistake
It went from days to weeks to months without talking
But then something change everything
A mysterious call came through, I couldn't recognise the number but I picked up
It was your mom and told me something bad happened to you
Hold OnSeems like nobody cares anymore
Days go by and I am stuck in the same place as yesterday
Locked in this cage
In a endless loop of disappointment and lost
All I can do is to hold to the dream
Just hold on and believe
I know the road is hard but a day will come
Today may be long but tomorrow will come
I just need to hold and believe
Weeks have gone by
I still hold on
To that dream
But that dream went up into flames
I thought it will never turned this way
But all I can do is to hold on
What is left of me?
What I can pull out of this rubble?
Burned up in flames
A lifetime of effort, gone in a flash
I feel no pain or numbness
Just feels nothing
But I will always remember
Remember to hold on
Hold on and believe that someone will come and save
HomeA place where you feel the safest
A place where you feel most at ease from the world
A place where you can be your true self
But now, why does it feel of a place of pain and misery?
Place of no hope, in bitter darkness
Once you been through it, you don't want to come back
Once you left, this is what I have been feeling
When will it ever end?
A cold winter chill that drives through this place
You always said “I want to come back home” and every time it gave more a better sense of security
Patience can’t just come like that; there were many times I wanted to just give up on you
But what brings me back is I have hope that shines in me
Now I see you walking down the street having your head down, in your light blue jacket
It is like I haven't seen you in years but something was different
A vibe, a dark mysterious one I never seen this one before
I took a good look at you; your eyes seem dim like you lost something
Your natural glow you had is now slipping away
BlackoutI see you starting to show signs
Signs of pain, weakness, darkness
The pain is killing you from the inside out, your weakness is in your ability to strive onwards, and the darkness is overcoming you so you can't see
I had to help you, laying there motionless
So I try picking you up and started carrying you
But I could not, not for a long time
I already was tired and weak from the burning sun from above
So I laid you down on a park bench and to see if you were feeling any better
But nothing, the signs were becoming worse
Before you pass out, I said to you
"I will find you water and find someone else to help to carry you home"
You nodded but blackout
So I ran, fast as I can to the nearest place to find water. I was feeling weak but couldn't take it anymore of the dreaded sun so I collapse towards the ground and feeling to give up.
But no, I can't give up just like that
All the times we spend together, all the cherish memories; I could not throw it away
I told myself, I must continue on t
There is a PlaceThere is a place
A special place, where plans are crashed and
Dreams come true
A place where
I would want to be forever
But I can't reach it
I see it everyday
I can't move closer
Because I am trapped
Trapped within my own memories
Moments of pain and suffering
Would it ever end?
I can't do this alone
But then you appear
With a smile on your face every time
Always wondered what made you happy
Till you told me
"I am happy because you make me happy."
You hugged me for a long time
What ran though my mind started to make sense
My pain and suffering was drifting away
There was someone who care enough
Someone who wanted to help
Someone that wants you feel a change from within
A place where
Plans are crashed while dreams blossom
That place was you
Nothing to LoseThere's nothing to lose
When no one knows what you going through
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
Deep in my heart
Its an endless spiral of pain
Don't you know what I am fighting for?
When it's not worth to go through all this pain
When you feel you are don't know where to go
When walking on the path on broken glass
Feel like that something from your life is drifting away
Is it worth to try pull it back?
It's just a slap to my face by reality
Slammed the door behind me
A dozen reasons ran through my mind
Standing there, crying
Wondering if it could have gone better?
All I need is a second chance
There is nothing else for me to lose
I already lost myself in my turmoil
What have I done? This is not what I planned
Now she is gone, I don't want to feel my heart is breaking
I have blood on my hands
Her blood, dripping...
Why why, this knife in my right hand and my left hand on her throat
Doing the one thing I would never do
Harm the one person I truly loved
What If?Love me?
I never really could understand why?
You tell me you love me but you left me standing there
I know you may never leave me but you wouldn't as a friend
There is more than what meets the eye when it comes to talking to you
I feel connected to you more than anyone else did
Maybe there was a gap?
Gap that wasn't there before
Drifting away like sea billows roll
Bridges are built but the gap will always be under it
Going the extra mile to give you what you deserved and more
That is my love for you
To give more than what you expected
Nevertheless, there are doubts
These doubts they fill my heart with "What Ifs?"
What if you stop thinking about me?
What if you stop caring for me?
What if you stop loving me?
I don't want think about the many possibilities can be
Don't fall into temptation and believe them
Don't over analysis things that you can't control over
I want to tell you "please stay, I don't want you to leave. I still an 'us' just don't...I...love..you.."
The tears f
I Need You To KnowStop.
I need you to stop what you're doing
And listen to me for a second.
I need you to understand my words
Even though they fall carelessly from my lips.
It will only take a few minutes, I promise.
I need you to know that I love you,
And that I always have.
I cared for you more than myself.
Nothing else matter as long as
You were there to comfort me,
And I thank you for that.
I think you should know that when I
Woke up this morning my first thoughts
Were of you, as they are every morning.
I wanted to know how you felt,
If you were okay,
If you were thinking of me…
Now for the hard part:
I need you to know that I don't want this.
Because it completely blindsided me.
I was suddenly picked up out of this universe
And thrown into another.
And now I am constantly needing a reminder of how to breathe.
I did not ask for this.
I could have picked someone better;
Someone who would wrap their arms
Around my waist and mean it when
They say that everything is okay,
But I didn't. I didn't choose.
I'm Your Worn Out DollYou whisper you love me and will never let go,
But the future happens to show,
Both of us covered in blood drawn by a knife.
Have you tried to count every promise you will break in your life?
Every word that you've said that meant nothing after the smoke cleared,
And you have seemed to veer,
Away from me as I have predicted.
It seems as if you have gotten addicted,
To throwing me in the back round, pulling me out when I am needed.
Every word you've pleaded,
To me will not help the fact I feel like a worn out doll.
I now know better then to fall,
Into the words and phrases you've said to everyone and have memorized...
It's as if they are imprinted,
In your delicate thing you call a brain.
But never ever ever again,
Will I fall for such words that mean nothing.
Please excuse me as I seek words and actions that mean something.
Playing GodPlaying God
Hate isn't healing
Too often it's killing
And feelings aren't spared in the process of stealing a life
Stealing a father, a mother, a sister, a brother, a daughter, a son, a husband, or wife
Or maybe just stealing a friend
In the end what you take is a person connected
By strands of affection protected by nothing
But pure unconditional love
And when hearts are infected
And words are inflected
With currents of loathing
The booming voice of some being above
It's these people you hurt
Not just the ones in the dirt
Who feel the effect
Of your hate indirectly
Connecting when push comes to shove
You call me a monster
A monster that loves?
Seems kind of silly to me
Practice your preaching
Or risk only reaching
An audience too blind to see
Tolerance doesn't imply your support
It only requires you do not cavort
As the only opinion worth holding
And when your values conflict
With more sensible edict
Forego the sociopolitical molding
You see people are people
My Fragile HeartMy fragile little heart
Little fluttering dove in my chest
Delicate creature thou art
Lay thine worries to rest
No longer shall thee fret
of the peril of splitting in two
No longer shall love hold debt
Nor ever 'gain burden you
I nay dare love another
So as to not tempt Fate
Nor, my brittle heart smother
This I vow... this I state
My shivering little heart
Thou hath shattered many a times
So now my choice be smart
And safe be my fluttering chimes
Be gone Cherubs and Cupid
Thy arrows' poison be tart
Strike me not as dumb-muted
Strike not my fragile heart
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
In my Lover Arms ForeverI've waited for you for a long time
But time has kept us apart
Through the years that has happened
All I wish was to see you for a life time
Time has been cruel to all
But to me this is what fate tells us
Deep inside we were always meant to be
Cause your my lover and forever my future
Its been said to all
that we always had a purpose to live
Now I speak the truth to all
Cause my heart always tells me its right
Its been for so long
that I never had this feeling
Until the day that I met you
I knew that I was free to this world
Life has its moments to all
I have got to say that this was best of all
All the thing that we share
This is the precious gift anybody could ask for
Now all I ever want
is to be close beside you where I belong
Cause forever fate will guide us
and forever we will never be apart
This is what we all have hoped for
dreamed of, and nurtured every day
This is all I ever wanted in life
was to be safe in my Lover arms forever
My name is NothingMy name is Nothing,
And I know...
You're in love with her -
I'm just your friend.
I am nothing else.
I am Nothing to you;
I'm a ghost that listens
to your many woes;
I give you space to
take a deep breath in;
I am who you turn to
when you have no one;
I'm always there for you,
but never actually there.
My name is Nothing.
And I know it was absurd
for me to think that
I could be her,
that I could be...
I have never felt this way before,
Completely and utterly empty,
I feel like my heart has been torn to shreds,
Leaving nothing but broken shards just like a hurricane does,
This pain, is a pain that has been torturing me,
It has been taking over my body for the past few days,
Slowly stripping the life out of me,
Leaving nothing but a dark empty shell,
I never imagined it could hurt so much to lose you,
Especially since I barely even knew you,
You were a role model for everyone,
And it rips me apart to know you're gone,
I know you're in a better place,
But something inside me still wishes you were here,
It killed me when I saw a dead body for the first time,
And it just had to be yours,
Tears are continuously pouring down like rain,
Staining my face with sorrow,
I would repeatedly mechanically wipe them away,
But when will my gloomy days come to an end?
I just wish I could have seen you once more time,
Seen that beautiful and welcoming smile of yours,
Listen to your wonderful and c
ConnectionsI love you
Remember them all
Everytime I say it
It's a piece of me,
I give to you
I see all you are
And you're beauiful
You're worth it all
I'd give it all
All the inside ways
Things no one knows
Our private communication
In plain sight
Like the penciled bats in heaven
You're a star in my mind
And the angel on my shoulder
These are all the things that remind me of you
You're all around me
Everywhere I go
In everything I see
You're forever in my heart
Forever in my mind
And I'll love you
Until the end
What Happened?We were once us but now me
You say you care but really you don't
I rather if you don't so that you can drift away like a memory
Now I am alone, walking alone in this cold world
Just move on, there are others that make me happy
So in a way I thank you for leaving
Thanks for making happier but it the days like this that I stop and want to go back
But how to go back when there is nothing there
You left and move on like nothing
Why should I care?
"If I lose you, I don't know what I would do"
I remember I said that and turns out to be true
You walk away, that's all she wrote
Don't just say goodbye when I never wanted to
Too bad that you felt miserable
Its sad one can be happy and the other can be feel not same
Was it the reason why we got into this relationship just to forget who we were chasing before?
Or wasn't that something needed to change with our lives?
I don't know, it happened within a blink of an eye
I didn't try hard enough or you gave up too easily?
Can't change anything that ha
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