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Moments like these, sometimes I wished I didn't experience It happened, all in such a flash…nothing registered   The only thing I knew, was the sound of being cuffed. Feelings of guilt and shame ran through my mind but at the same time anger and anxiety. No one was going to help me out this, felt abandonment. Left here to deal with the consequences. So called a friend you were, asshole. There are different scenarios played through my mind, every night behind in these four walls What if I left my friend would he felt the same way? What if I jumped, would I escape this fate? What if I ratted him out? What if…and the list goes on

The loss of the drive or the motivation to do something that you used to love? Huh, I think I have hit that point, multiple times. Hasn't everyone for different reasons? I just didn't think it would be in writing Maybe it wasn't just that, there must be a deeper more complex reasons why Why I've stop, why there is no meaning behind the words or just meaningless crap that just thrown all together just the sake of writing Why maybe I only write based on what see, hear or feel about something and not having any connection towards it anymore? Or maybe I am just way too into myself Judging my own ideas, opinions and just disregard them Loss of

I still love you. Considering of all what has transpire, I can’t stop loving you. Near or from a distance, I do. Love wasn't just an emotion of what was felt but rather of what was done. Maybe that’s why, it fell apart The only thing that I truly regret is of what could’ve done instead of doing nothing. So much time has passed and gave me time to think Thinking about the memories of us together good or bad To learn from them and grow To be frank, I just worry about everything that came out of my mouth I just couldn’t say what I really wanted to say because I fear of what your reaction will be That’s why I wou

Sometimes I wonder Wonder how you and I drifted so far apart? Every time I wonder this since we part There wasn't a day I didn't think about you I thought maybe not talking to you will give me peace but I was wrong I miss you I remember the good times and the bad times I learned so much in a matter of time Just wish it was not from without you Others came and go Day in and day out But the last one crosses my mind is you Sometimes I wonder you do the same? Maybe you did, maybe you didn’t If you did, I am probably too late to look back That door has been closed for some time Maybe just a knock, a call would have changed But maybe I w

Will I miss you when you are gone? Probably yes or not if that's the case It was a question that I asked myself oh that time ago Is that I will miss the person or memories? Each time I think it's a little of both The times of you being next to me or even the times we talk day in, day out Drift apart like how we first started as strangers I'd never thought that will ever happened but reality kicks in doesn't it? Walk away from my life, knowing you are not coming back But have you ever look back once even for a glance or will I be just a bitter memory to you? But nevermind, that's not my choice The type of pain that either controls you or

Love me? I never really could understand why? You tell me you love me but you left me standing there I know you may never leave me but you wouldn't as a friend There is more than what meets the eye when it comes to talking to you I feel connected to you more than anyone else did Maybe there was a gap? Gap that wasn't there before Drifting away like sea billows roll Bridges are built but the gap will always be under it Going the extra mile to give you what you deserved and more That is my love for you To give more than what you expected Nevertheless, there are doubts These doubts they fill my heart with "What Ifs?" What if you stop t

You have been standing there behind this glass for a long time I see you standing there, wanting to be free Wanting to be free from your own situations I see you waiting there for me to return Nothing more than an emotionless face Just starring there, a glare of emptiness Now, only if I can make a smile Only if you can believe me that I still care about you Only if you can believe me that try my best to cherish you Only if you can believe me that we can make this work Look deep, down in your heart There is pain that you have Pain that is unbearable but you still carry it But it is neither a pain of misery nor a pain of sadness It

A place where you feel the safest A place where you feel most at ease from the world A place where you can be your true self But now, why does it feel of a place of pain and misery? Place of no hope, in bitter darkness Once you been through it, you don't want to come back Once you left, this is what I have been feeling When will it ever end? A cold winter chill that drives through this place You always said “I want to come back home” and every time it gave more a better sense of security Patience can’t just come like that; there were many times I wanted to just give up on you But what brings me back is I have hope that s